My near death experience
by Bailey Ashlynn Johnson
Growing up, I was raised in a very restricted environment. Close minded views surrounding me always, and family relationships were as thin as paper.
Naturally, I've felt very closed off my whole life. sort of isolated. But in that time of solitude there's a lot of soul searching and much needed thoughts that take place. In the time I've spent alone I have gotten to know myself in a way I feel very blessed to even have experienced.
A little over a year ago, something snapped inside of me. I had been letting things get to me, feeding myself with lies and letting hurtful thoughts just seep into my skin and sit there. I was damaging myself, because of my state of mind.
I didn't fully understand at the time how much thought takes into play on our lives, how the law of attraction works, how every thought is a vibration...it's all connected. And when you emit negativity that's what will keep plaguing your heart, and shielding your view.
It's very possible to see the crack of light in the darkness, all it takes is believing that it's there, and focusing on that light. And that will give you hope!
Alright, so that night, I had smoked some lovely Mary Jane, and I knew something was going to happen that day..it felt so strange, I couldn't remember anything..then I walked inside my house and laid down on my bed.
At that instant my body started to tingle, and I could feel myself freezing up, my eyes were still open, but I couldn't move...it felt like a stroke. Then I blacked out. my body was shaking then, I could feel it, starting to vibrate...extremely fast. Now there was light, my first vision was of me laying in the back of a car that I had been in earlier that day, and I was unconscious.
I was looking down upon myself there, blue lights were flashing through the windows, and I got pulled out to go in the ambulance. When we were in the ambulance truck, they used the heart stimulator on me, 2 times. it helped a little bit, I was pushing my breath, I could feel myself fighting, to stay awake. I was scared, I had been feeling like letting myself go this day, and here I am, having this intense experience, am I really dying? if not, how am I feeling every bit of this? physical, spiritual, mental..it all seems so very prominent.
Like every moment is a masterpiece, it's meaning beyond words. Well we ended up in a hospital room, and I could see my heart monitor, slowly going, there were 2 female doctors and 1 male, and their faces looked somewhat familiar to me. I could feel my breathe starting to slip away from me. It felt as if all my breathe was placed in a balloon and then a tiny little hole was put in it, and it all started to seep away from me. It was uncontrollable. It was escaping me and there was nothing I could do about it but accept it. My heart stopped, and on my last breathe I started to see a huge tunnel, it was like another vortex just pulling me in...time was non-existent. strange colors started to appear, they came in glowing flashes, and disappeared into the darkness again.
Then my life played right before me..I saw myself inside my mothers womb, saying certain words as a toddler, staring up at the sunshine, meeting people, laughing, crying, things I didn't remember until that moment, but they really happened. All leading up to me on that day, showing me what I have done so far, and letting me know that there's so much more for me to do here on earth. I could feel a calm woman presence with me, comforting me. Telling me "your time is not finished here Bailey. you will make art and be happy. and help others along the way."
And then I woke up, out of nowhere. unable to move still I laid there and instantly I fell back into whatever this was. I still needed to experience the rest. Then, suddenly I felt like I was being sucked into earth. I was underground, a seed...breathing, and seeing. feeling, and having thoughts. I felt extremely content. then.. in an instant I was looking over my funeral, and alongside me was the very wise, and soothing woman. she had experience I could tell, and natural born healing abilities. she comforted me and guided me through this. after the funeral, then I started to feel that pull again.
I was being put into another body, right after that death. I was a 21 year old woman, with long blonde hair, it was sunny, and I was walking down the middle of a road, it looked like Utah possibly. then, I see a semi truck heading down the road. they aren't paying attention so I just keep walking towards it. and then bam, I walk right into it and I start to experience dying all over again. I can feel my bones being crushed, my memories go, and I see intimate details of another life's death....this was me in some past life.
The life experiences I went through then were similar to now, but my mindset was in the wrong place. seeing myself in another body, was beyond words. Feeling that so deeply in my soul and knowing that was me. we had on rings on every finger, she was humming and dancing on her tippy toes, just like I do now.
Once I had experienced that death, I was being sucked into another body again. This time, I was a boy, maybe 18 at the time. I was in a bathtub, and decided to harm myself and I lay there bleading to death. I saw all of his memories, his life flash as well. And the same characteristics were there as before and before. Then there was a continuous glow that flowed in and out of me, I woke up, and was astounded. I am so thankful for this insight...this glimpse at death. I am not afraid anymore. I understand that there is life after death, our souls are infinite. Beautiful, fragile, and unique. I learned that I have the power to save myself. I can be strong, regardless of things that have brought me down in the past, I see that light everywhere I go, and I know anything can be accomplished. This life is all yours and you have every bit of power and will in you to be anything you want to be. to inspire, to create, to live...truly and fully. don't be afraid. it's not worth it. enjoy every moment that is placed in front of you. Do things that make you happy and remove yourself from the things that don't. Nourish yourself with love, and you will flourish like a field of flowers in the middle of the desert.