I don't have a dramatic story to tell. Nor do I have a story of amazing psychic experiences from when I was a child. My story is quite simple. I am. I am a spiritual seeker. I don't think there is an end to the seeking and to the quest. And I am not sure when was the beginning.
It is hard to say when one begins her spiritual journey. Is it the time when you sit by the river, listening to the water and feeling peacefulness in your heart?
Or when you are painting and being in the moment, in the flow of your creativity, not thinking about the past or the future?
Or is it when you experience deep feelings of love for yourself, your loved ones, your neighbors, and the whole of humanity?
Do you begin your spiritual path when you become conscious of it? That is, you become aware and can verbalize that you are a spiritual seeker or that you are on a spiritual path? Is that the distinction?
I don't think so. It was not for me. I started on a spiritual path when I was healing from child abuse and resulting PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder). I began learning about energy psychology and began practicing.
Around the same time, I began exploring Reiki, acupressure, and other modalities. I immersed myself in alternative healing techniques. I read everything I could get my hands on. I practiced. I meditated. I began yoga and QiGong. I started listening to healing tapes and brainwave entrainment every day.
And I meditated. I already mentioned that, didn't I?
And I meditated some more.
But at the beginning, I was not aware that I was on a spiritual path or a journey. I did not think of it that way. I just knew, in my body, that what I was doing, was right for me.
Being on a spiritual journey and healing yourself can be challenging and hard work. Sometimes, I felt like I was going so deep that I would never come out. I did. Always. I am here.
It is challenging and it is rewarding too. I am grateful for so many teachers and so many wonderful books and tools that have guided me over the past 10 years. My mind has opened up and so did my heart.
There is more work to do. Like I said at the beginning, this is a journey and I am on a path of transformation.